Guy Radar: Feel US.

Hello beautiful people! So this, I've been thinking of things to put in here as I type non stop while the song Wedding Dress by J.Reyez is playing on the back ground. Well, I think that's just what I needed to come up with a hopefully really nice post for today.. I was thinking of a Blair-Chuck quote and voila! I got one! :)

"Last fall you said we couldn't be together and I believed you, but every time I tried to move on you're right there."
-Blair Waldorf (Gossip Girl)

I'm guessin' you're kind of curious why I chose that quote.. simple, I just want to blog about GUY RADAR or whatever the heck they call it in the Men's World. You see, I've been with this guy for almost 23months now although we're really NOT TOGETHER.. let's just picture it that way. (hehe!) So, here's the thing.. he's hot and cold, meaning today he'll be the sweetest guy on earth then tomorrow.. you're gonna want to ask for help from Dora the explorer and her friends to go find him. So, whenever my friends ask me how's he or where's he? I've already practiced saying this,"As usual, M.I.A" BUT I can't deny the fact that although I'm already used to him being so M.I.A every single time I always send him "drama messages"! (haha!) Just to, you know.. check if he's going to reply or if he's still HERE.Ofcourse the main purpose of sending him that message: HOPELESSLY TRYING TO KEEP HIM AROUND. Sometimes I'll get replies but other times.. it's as if, I never existed! Hurts, I know right! It sucks, it does.  So, you know us girls once our effort din't get the appreciation we want and once the love of our lives rip our heart apart at the sims we have this tendency to decide right away to just move the fvck on, let him be and entertain OTHER guys. 

So there, I don't really know if guys are really good at recognizing THE radar. Most of the times, you still have to punch it on their jerky faces just to let them know that you're leaving them/ you've finally after millions of years left them in that cold night. So going back, I've had my share of flings while he's M.I.A (Missing In Action) and you know what's weird? It's like he got this really strong RADAR.. he'll suddenly call me up and text me sweet messages. You get the hint, just to make sure that I'm still his and that to remind me that I'm not allowed to flirt with any other guy but him! Nice radar, I wonder where he got that? Apple Inc. maybe or Sony? =)) HAHAHA! My point is, it happens all the friggin' time! AAND it's startin' to freak me out! LOL! =)) Then.. he'll be M.I.A again. -_- 

"Someone, call a doctor! Got a case of a love bipolar, stuck on a roller coaster can' get off this ride."  
-Katy Perry (Hot 'n Cold)

Right now, I'm on the verge of letting it all go. I'm tired. Tired of all these shizz. Tired of guessing, tired of mainly confusing myself and complicating my heart. I just want to break up with my only misery for 23months. He wants me to be around but he's not taking care of me. I feel like I'm a flower starting to wilt coz of lack of water and sunlight. :( "You fvcking need to take care of me and just thought that you should know.. there's nothing left of me for you anymore. I need you to need me back and to take care of me. Show me that you love me and that you truly appreciate me. NEED I SAY MORE?" I'm only human, I get tired.

SO PLEASE, DO ACTIVATE YOUR RADAR WHEN IN COMES TO THESE THINGS. :) Feel me, feel the rest of me. Don't just go running around like I don't exist or like I'm not feeling anything AT ALL. I love you and I think I always will, and you know that no matter what you do or what you say I'll always stick around but I need a break. I need a breather from all these, coz every single time I feel all of it inside me.. I have to act like I'm not hurting and that's no easy task.

 I'm also voicing these things out for all my ladies out there who are in the same thing as me. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH but please.. don't take us, our presence and our love for you  for     granted.  Coz you wouldn't like it if we'll do it to you. :)

So this is what happens when a sleep deprived me is in front of a laptop. HAHAHA! :)) 'Till the next post! xx

Toodles! <3


Love Always,
Me 

Video Bloggin', baby!

 

 I sure do hope by tomorrow I won't be too much of a lazy ass to type! HAHA! :)) Sorry if I looked terrible! :| :| 

Toodles!xx

Love Always,

Me 

Don't got balls? Atleast have the decency.

Have you ever had that someone you thought you're going to have a really great relationship with? That one person who constantly talks to you no matter how busy and tiring their day was? That person who by any chance made you feel like you're the most important person to him and nothing else mattered (aside from his family) but--YOU? That person who wanted to hug you, kiss you and be with you every day? That person who constantly misses you 24/7? Who makes drama in a joking way whenever you fail to reply to his messages on chat/texts? Who makes you smile and the list goes on but now.. he's gone with the wind and how you wish time stood still for the both of you? AAND wished you can bring back the old times?

I HAD THAT. I lost him without me knowing it. OH, scratch that! I never lost him, coz HE WAS NEVER MINE TO BEGIN WITH. He became a part of my everyday. When we drifted a part just recently.. I always had this urge to chat him up and check if he's doing oky. Up until today I'm having that urge but at least I'm awesome (hehe!) enough not to! :))  You see, I never wanted he and I to end up being strangers again. Like we never shared something special. Coz right now.. I can't really say I'm hurting and I'm not really jealous of his new girl. Oky, the girl's really pretty and I'm having thoughts that maybe that's the reason why he chose her over me and the rest is history. Going back.. I just wished he had the balls to tell me that he lost interest in me and found someone better. That would've saved me from all the anxiety! It sucks being left hanging in dead air! I have no hard feelings or whatsoever but I know you get me, right? :| Nobody deserves to be left hanging in the middle of nowhere.. So to all you people out there, especially boys.. Please, have the decency to let that person know that you're leaving. At least they won't wait around looking like retards waiting for something impossible to happen. 

I'm not being bitter and all, but I'm just trying to emphasize the thing you should've done. At least we kind of avoided this thing. Coz right now, I'm noticing you're avoiding me like a plague. I know she's pretty and she's the girl of your dreams and I know you're already happy now with her and I have no problem with that. Although we all know that at the very back of my mind that would've been me if life weren't so messed up. Don't worry though, I'll be a better me for you and of course. for myself and for the one who truly deserves me. :)

If there's one thing I learned from that experience, life's uncertainty will attack you any moment of the day so enjoy and savor the moment while it lasts and if the time comes that, that certain moment has to end.. have the courage to let it go and smile to yourself and remind yourself that someday, someone's gonna come along and make you realize why the other one never worked out. <3

Toodles! xx

Love Always,

Me

Mind to Intro, my lovelies? :)

Hello there, my fellow bloggers and to all the lovely people in the world! I'm Shayne or yes, you can call me S or Miss S. I'm new here, although I already tried blogging a few years back but it din't work so well for me since there are a lot of haters in the world and I must admit, I din't have the courage to handle them back then. ;) Now, I'm back and ready to blog it all up. No holds barred. AAND yes, there is always that one person in the world who is the reason why you always end up doing things or deciding doing things.. for me.. it's my good friend Marah Gaa, you can check out her blog at gaamorous.blogspot.com I swear she makes really touching and a blog worth reading! :) Especially if you're heartbroken or in love or whatever the f you're feeling! I suggest you check out her blog! HAHA! <3

So this, as for now.. I'll give you a little background of myself. :) I'm Shayne Marie F. Sesbreno a 20 yr.old young lady trying to figure out things on her own and trying not to rely too much on fate, destiny whatsoever! I'm really not a believer of these things but once served up with a hint or a pinch of either, I must say I always give in to either or silly me.. both. :)) I'll let you decide whether I'm a doubter or a believer as I start to blog up on things. I love quoting quotes from books or my favorite movies.. A LOT! So pardon me if ever I do that here which technically I will, for sure! HAHAHA! :"> I love the beach, I love the serene beauty of the ocean or the sea. I love staring at how amazing and alluring the beauty of Nature is. I'm naturally a bubbly person so I'm always like the positive side of the situation. I'm not the answer but I can always give you the optimism you need to push through to whatever you're going to do.. oky, JUST GOOD THINGS PLEASE. :) I love metaphors, whatever kind of metaphors as long as I can understand it and people can relate to it, I think it'll be good. :) I talk A LOT! Like A LOT.. my number of tweets on twitter can attest to that! :) Hihi! :">

I think that's enough for now. Later tonight, I'm going to start blogging about whatever's going to pop up in my head.  :)

Toodles! xx

Love Always,
Miss S