I am so M.I.A: Greetings

Sorry if I haven't been blogging for the past weeks. I'v been busy and kinda lazy to blog.. but I promise that I will blog about my holidays a-sap! :) Anyhoo.. HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE AND HAVE AN AWESOME NEW YEAR!! =) Make the last day of 2011 count! :)



Love always,
ME

iWant :)

Sorry if I've been so M.I.A the past weeks.. I've been so busy with school and all I could manage was my Twitter and Facebook. HAHA! :) So anyway, I was staring blankly at the ceiling last night before I flirt with my bed and then a topic suddenly hit me! It was something what I want, something what we want... but we couldn't figure it all out. Sometimes, we'd rather be alone to figure it out, or by  the beach while watching the sunrise/sunset, or with friends or with family or with the love of our lives. Either ways, it depends upon our will and our drive to figure it all out. :)

 

Yes, my topic for today is THE WANTS. You see, I'm pretty sure that we all have our very long list of WANTS inside our pockets, drawers, bags, notebooks, our head and our heart. Most of the times, we couldn't figure out what do we really want the most. It's hard, it's going to be tough if you don't listen to your heart and balance it out with your brain. Everyday, we struggle and fight with our inner soul about what we really want in life, whatever it may be. It's like a battle we will never win if we don't know how to be content. Yes, I know.. cliche but contentment is the key but human as we are, we always seem to want more of whatever life has to offer us. Something that would satisfy the hunger of our heart, mind and soul. We're young, we tend to want so many things, even things that won't really matter in the future. When you're young you just want things without knowing if that thing would really satisfy you.. as an individual. Sure, there are plenty of things in the world that are worth having but what's worth having if it doesn't really give you the satisfaction you've been craving? Having alone is one thing but having something and actually feeling satisfied is another thing. Right now, I have my fixed list of wants in life, things that I know will satisfy me as an individual. Things that I know will benefit me in the future. Graduation's fast approaching, and aside from the fixed assets (or things) that I want, I have my own list of things that will satisfy me and my dreams. :)

WHILE I'M STILL YOUNG, STRONG AND BEAUTIFUL (This is my blog so just deal with it! HAHAHA) I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO/HAVE ALL THESE:  

•  Since the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show just aired last week if I'm not mistaken, I want to be an Angel.. even for just a day. I know it's crazy and impossible but the word it self says otherwise. :)  

• I want to eat all the cutely and beautifully designed pastries in the world! Come what may! HAHA <3

 

•  We all want to travel to different places with no hassles what so ever! :) It would be so awesome and legendary! :)

   

•  Who doesn't want to be rich? Haha! Like c'mon, seriously.. it's like a trend or something, whatever the heck people call it these days.. I JUST WANT TO BE RICH and be on Forbes' richest people in the world. (Oh yeah)

•  I want to drive and have the sickest and fastest car in the world, ever! ;) Now that's beyond awesome! 

•  Wouldn't this be nice? :) Hahahaha! =)))

•  Need I say more? ;)

•  I want to be married to the love of my life and I'll make sure that he loves me as much. :) <3

•  I want to have this kind of feeling. The feeling where in you just feel so elated, like you're in heaven. Euphoria darlin', euphoria. :)

 

• I want to be forever young, be fearless, wild, fun, and be happy! I think that's the most important thing in the world.. BEING HAPPY. :) 

I gave you ten out of my so many wants, now it's your turn.

What do you want?

WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT? :)

Remember, "You're damned if you don't and damned if you do. So why not just DO IT?" 


Toodles! xx


Love Always,
Me 

Teen-ish dream

"I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person."
-Audrey Hepburn

 

I love how Audrey Hepburn believes in things. Her perceptions in life are just ah-mazingly true that most of the times, you live by it. :) Who wouldn't love someone who can make them laugh, right? Laughing is almost like a reflex, a short remedy to all your worries. Isn't it nice to just have good laughs with someone or with your friends while you're watching light hearted movies or by just simply sitting on the couch while eating chips or pastries? We sometimes, forget how to laugh because we tend to over think all our problems. Most of the times, it's not actually THAT thing that really makes us happy at all.. it's that SOMEONE-- someone to "make kulitan" with, someone that's going to laugh at all your jokes and tell you, "you're so baduy!" but they'll laugh anyway! :)) Your anti-stress or your personal brand of stress reliever! <3 That would be nice, right? Just laughing the entire day away not worrying about anything--AT ALL. :)

 

I sincerely believe that it's the loveliest thing ever, the most beautiful event that's going to happen in your life--when in a certain moment of your life.. there's someone that's going to come along and make you forget all your troubles away! Someone who at the end of every day, no matter how near or how far that someone is from you.. will always make time for you; Will always make sure that you're the first and the last person he/she talks to. Will always make you happy no matter what. That one person in the world who will look at you and tell you you're beautiful even if you're just wearing a big loose shirt and your pjs/boxers. (hehe!) with messy hair. Oky, I'm starting to smile now.. because I know, even if I don't have that someone YET, he's going to come around and make me the happiest woman, ever! <3 So, to whoever you are.. I am patiently waiting here! I'll welcome you with open arms. :) As a kid, I always thought that having beautiful toys and yummy food is enough to make me happy.. but as I grow older, I realized that it's not enough.. those things aren't going to make sense if you're not going to share it with someone dear to you. :) 

I was not really  a believer of being happy with someone.. BACK THEN. Until all these fairy tales came in. They made us believe that to be truly happy.. you have to be with the one you truly love and live happily ever after. I'm blaming fairy tales for making me such a romantic! (Hahaha! Oky now I'm kidding!) <3

 

As a kid, Disney taught me that true love waits. That love is supposed to make you sing happy tunes and smile like a fool not cry to make a pool and make a fool of your self. (hehe. oky I hope that one made sense! :))) But I also learned that in love you have to be hurt in order for you to feel that what you have is really real; but above all.. Love did not teach us how to hate, it taught us how to let go of the bad air out so that we'd feel BETTER not BITTER. :) So that we'd believe that in every Storm there's a rainbow and a sun shining at you! (You know, just pure good vibes? hehe) You know, what.. I envy those people who already found the one they're going to spend the rest of their lives with without regrets or whatsoever just love! The kind of love that will make you giggle like you're a kid again! The kind of love that no matter how much it hurts it always has a way of making it up and making things a tad better! That's the kind of love we all want, right? :)

"My heart stops when you look at me, just one touch now baby I believe this is real so take a chance and don't ever look back!"

          --Katy Perry (Teenage Dream)

THIS song will always make me feel in love! No matter how Single I am (today) HAHAHA! It always gives me that undying hope for my one true love. Oky I know it sounded mushy and corny but it's just real! So I impose we must dispose (hehe) all the negative vibes inside us so that we can all live in happiness and in peace! :) See, I never failed to laugh while creating this blog post! (Notice all the "hehe" and "haha" ) it really cures a multitude of ills, especially the negative feelings we have inside our hearts. :)

So while creating this entire blog post, I formulated my own Good Vibes formula (LOL) :

• Pray (Thank God for every thing. AMEN) 
• Think of Happy Thoughts (It will make you feel better)
•  Smile (Always smile! It will make your day and who knows, you made someone's day worth it.) 
• Love like you've never been hurt (RISE ABOVE HATE) 
• Hope (Believe that everything will fall into their rightful places, eventually.. at the right time.) 

So the  whole point of this entire blog post? Well.. it's this:

 "When you find someone who makes you smile, when you find someone who makes you learn to love, who makes you wake up to the reality of life, when you find someone who truly listens and shares what he thinks, when you find you want to spend every hour, every minute, every nanosecond with that person, keep him/her and if he's/she's not yet yours, find him/her. Everything starts with that one step that makes all the difference in the world." ♥

As for love, ha, love. Always sought after, never totally really found with the exception of that one beautiful moment. It'll come. Meantime, let go. Enjoy. nd who knows, you'll have your own Happily Ever After.. SOON. :)

Toodles! xx

P.S: HAPPY THOUGHTS, EVERYONE! :)

Love Always,

ME  

Guy Radar: Feel US.

Hello beautiful people! So this, I've been thinking of things to put in here as I type non stop while the song Wedding Dress by J.Reyez is playing on the back ground. Well, I think that's just what I needed to come up with a hopefully really nice post for today.. I was thinking of a Blair-Chuck quote and voila! I got one! :)

"Last fall you said we couldn't be together and I believed you, but every time I tried to move on you're right there."
-Blair Waldorf (Gossip Girl)

I'm guessin' you're kind of curious why I chose that quote.. simple, I just want to blog about GUY RADAR or whatever the heck they call it in the Men's World. You see, I've been with this guy for almost 23months now although we're really NOT TOGETHER.. let's just picture it that way. (hehe!) So, here's the thing.. he's hot and cold, meaning today he'll be the sweetest guy on earth then tomorrow.. you're gonna want to ask for help from Dora the explorer and her friends to go find him. So, whenever my friends ask me how's he or where's he? I've already practiced saying this,"As usual, M.I.A" BUT I can't deny the fact that although I'm already used to him being so M.I.A every single time I always send him "drama messages"! (haha!) Just to, you know.. check if he's going to reply or if he's still HERE.Ofcourse the main purpose of sending him that message: HOPELESSLY TRYING TO KEEP HIM AROUND. Sometimes I'll get replies but other times.. it's as if, I never existed! Hurts, I know right! It sucks, it does.  So, you know us girls once our effort din't get the appreciation we want and once the love of our lives rip our heart apart at the sims we have this tendency to decide right away to just move the fvck on, let him be and entertain OTHER guys. 

So there, I don't really know if guys are really good at recognizing THE radar. Most of the times, you still have to punch it on their jerky faces just to let them know that you're leaving them/ you've finally after millions of years left them in that cold night. So going back, I've had my share of flings while he's M.I.A (Missing In Action) and you know what's weird? It's like he got this really strong RADAR.. he'll suddenly call me up and text me sweet messages. You get the hint, just to make sure that I'm still his and that to remind me that I'm not allowed to flirt with any other guy but him! Nice radar, I wonder where he got that? Apple Inc. maybe or Sony? =)) HAHAHA! My point is, it happens all the friggin' time! AAND it's startin' to freak me out! LOL! =)) Then.. he'll be M.I.A again. -_- 

"Someone, call a doctor! Got a case of a love bipolar, stuck on a roller coaster can' get off this ride."  
-Katy Perry (Hot 'n Cold)

Right now, I'm on the verge of letting it all go. I'm tired. Tired of all these shizz. Tired of guessing, tired of mainly confusing myself and complicating my heart. I just want to break up with my only misery for 23months. He wants me to be around but he's not taking care of me. I feel like I'm a flower starting to wilt coz of lack of water and sunlight. :( "You fvcking need to take care of me and just thought that you should know.. there's nothing left of me for you anymore. I need you to need me back and to take care of me. Show me that you love me and that you truly appreciate me. NEED I SAY MORE?" I'm only human, I get tired.

SO PLEASE, DO ACTIVATE YOUR RADAR WHEN IN COMES TO THESE THINGS. :) Feel me, feel the rest of me. Don't just go running around like I don't exist or like I'm not feeling anything AT ALL. I love you and I think I always will, and you know that no matter what you do or what you say I'll always stick around but I need a break. I need a breather from all these, coz every single time I feel all of it inside me.. I have to act like I'm not hurting and that's no easy task.

 I'm also voicing these things out for all my ladies out there who are in the same thing as me. WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH but please.. don't take us, our presence and our love for you  for     granted.  Coz you wouldn't like it if we'll do it to you. :)

So this is what happens when a sleep deprived me is in front of a laptop. HAHAHA! :)) 'Till the next post! xx

Toodles! <3


Love Always,
Me 

Video Bloggin', baby!

 

 I sure do hope by tomorrow I won't be too much of a lazy ass to type! HAHA! :)) Sorry if I looked terrible! :| :| 

Toodles!xx

Love Always,

Me 

Don't got balls? Atleast have the decency.

Have you ever had that someone you thought you're going to have a really great relationship with? That one person who constantly talks to you no matter how busy and tiring their day was? That person who by any chance made you feel like you're the most important person to him and nothing else mattered (aside from his family) but--YOU? That person who wanted to hug you, kiss you and be with you every day? That person who constantly misses you 24/7? Who makes drama in a joking way whenever you fail to reply to his messages on chat/texts? Who makes you smile and the list goes on but now.. he's gone with the wind and how you wish time stood still for the both of you? AAND wished you can bring back the old times?

I HAD THAT. I lost him without me knowing it. OH, scratch that! I never lost him, coz HE WAS NEVER MINE TO BEGIN WITH. He became a part of my everyday. When we drifted a part just recently.. I always had this urge to chat him up and check if he's doing oky. Up until today I'm having that urge but at least I'm awesome (hehe!) enough not to! :))  You see, I never wanted he and I to end up being strangers again. Like we never shared something special. Coz right now.. I can't really say I'm hurting and I'm not really jealous of his new girl. Oky, the girl's really pretty and I'm having thoughts that maybe that's the reason why he chose her over me and the rest is history. Going back.. I just wished he had the balls to tell me that he lost interest in me and found someone better. That would've saved me from all the anxiety! It sucks being left hanging in dead air! I have no hard feelings or whatsoever but I know you get me, right? :| Nobody deserves to be left hanging in the middle of nowhere.. So to all you people out there, especially boys.. Please, have the decency to let that person know that you're leaving. At least they won't wait around looking like retards waiting for something impossible to happen. 

I'm not being bitter and all, but I'm just trying to emphasize the thing you should've done. At least we kind of avoided this thing. Coz right now, I'm noticing you're avoiding me like a plague. I know she's pretty and she's the girl of your dreams and I know you're already happy now with her and I have no problem with that. Although we all know that at the very back of my mind that would've been me if life weren't so messed up. Don't worry though, I'll be a better me for you and of course. for myself and for the one who truly deserves me. :)

If there's one thing I learned from that experience, life's uncertainty will attack you any moment of the day so enjoy and savor the moment while it lasts and if the time comes that, that certain moment has to end.. have the courage to let it go and smile to yourself and remind yourself that someday, someone's gonna come along and make you realize why the other one never worked out. <3

Toodles! xx

Love Always,

Me

Mind to Intro, my lovelies? :)

Hello there, my fellow bloggers and to all the lovely people in the world! I'm Shayne or yes, you can call me S or Miss S. I'm new here, although I already tried blogging a few years back but it din't work so well for me since there are a lot of haters in the world and I must admit, I din't have the courage to handle them back then. ;) Now, I'm back and ready to blog it all up. No holds barred. AAND yes, there is always that one person in the world who is the reason why you always end up doing things or deciding doing things.. for me.. it's my good friend Marah Gaa, you can check out her blog at gaamorous.blogspot.com I swear she makes really touching and a blog worth reading! :) Especially if you're heartbroken or in love or whatever the f you're feeling! I suggest you check out her blog! HAHA! <3

So this, as for now.. I'll give you a little background of myself. :) I'm Shayne Marie F. Sesbreno a 20 yr.old young lady trying to figure out things on her own and trying not to rely too much on fate, destiny whatsoever! I'm really not a believer of these things but once served up with a hint or a pinch of either, I must say I always give in to either or silly me.. both. :)) I'll let you decide whether I'm a doubter or a believer as I start to blog up on things. I love quoting quotes from books or my favorite movies.. A LOT! So pardon me if ever I do that here which technically I will, for sure! HAHAHA! :"> I love the beach, I love the serene beauty of the ocean or the sea. I love staring at how amazing and alluring the beauty of Nature is. I'm naturally a bubbly person so I'm always like the positive side of the situation. I'm not the answer but I can always give you the optimism you need to push through to whatever you're going to do.. oky, JUST GOOD THINGS PLEASE. :) I love metaphors, whatever kind of metaphors as long as I can understand it and people can relate to it, I think it'll be good. :) I talk A LOT! Like A LOT.. my number of tweets on twitter can attest to that! :) Hihi! :">

I think that's enough for now. Later tonight, I'm going to start blogging about whatever's going to pop up in my head.  :)

Toodles! xx

Love Always,
Miss S